Given the choice, and I usually do have the choice, I usually choose to go commando. I almost never wear knickers with jeans and I have some trousers that I just wouldn’t wear if I was unable to go without underwear. My mustard coloured trousers being a good example of this.
In general, I feel more comfortable and there’s the age old fact that there’s no VPL and all that. However, for me, more important than that is the fact that I feel more dressed up when I’m commando and I enjoy it. On the odd occasion I do wear knickers, I somehow feel frumpy and scruffy. There’s also the issue of other people knowing I’m not wearing knickers and there are many aspects of that that I enjoy, but in the main, the reason I like to go commando is because of the way it makes me feel.
As for people knowing about it. Most of my friends know about my preference and there’s no drama and other than a bit of stick from time to time, it’s old news and no comments are made. As for work colleagues and strangers knowing, well that’s quite important to me as well.
My ideal situation is for people to suspect I’m not wearing knickers, but in some small way remain unsure. I realise this is a bit naive on my part and fully understand that on some occasions it’s probably quite obvious. Again, I can use the mustard coloured trousers as an example. The cut of these trousers and the way they fit leave little doubt. Even so, in my previous job, to emphasis this, I would quite often wear knickers for the part of the day and take them off (or vice versa) for the rest of the day. My intention being to make people notice the difference.
I'll often put quite a lot of thought and planning in to things. I'll frequently buy clothes with specific ideas on when and how I’ll be wearing them; my ‘naked dress’ is a good example of that. I specifically bought my cream coloured trousers because I knew they’d show that I wasn't wearing any underwear. One of the things I particularly like about them is that there’s a label at the side which can clearly be seen through the fabric. This should tell those that look that if they can see the label, they’d be able to see my knickers if I was wearing any. Also, as there’s no waistband on them, they’re low on my hip and mean that even a flimsy thong would be visible. I have never, and will never wear knickers with these trousers.
Paradoxically, I want people to notice and I’m often disappointed that so few people seem to notice and even fewer ever make a comment. At the same time, if anyone does obviously notice I can sometimes feel embarrassment and should anyone say anything I’m mortified. In my last job, one of the girls once asked me if it was comfortable to be without underwear all day in work – I was wearing the mustard trousers at the time – and I was quite embarrassed. Partly because I think there was a small element of cattiness in her comment and partly because it took me by surprise. Also, it wasn't the sort of thing I imagine people saying. I suppose I want to be complimented in some way or asked why I do it. Not asked about the problems it can create.
On balance, I suppose I quite like strangers to notice and I'm less keen on people I know noticing. Again, I sort of blow my own theory out of the water by going to work braless and in general without any underwear. The more I try to explain how I feel, the more I realise I’m a strange person with a complicated hobby.
In my imagination, I like the thought of nice men finding out and like the idea that they would be turned on by it. I often fantasise that they undo my trousers, slide their hand in and discover that their suspicions were right. In these fantasies I’m often wearing my cream trousers which don’t have a waist band as such and the zip is at the side. He slides the zip down and slips his hand on to my hip, moves round to the front and between my legs.
In the fantasy I imagine all the things a bloke might say in such circumstances. Also in the fantasy I’m always smoothly shaven (not always the case in real life) and as he’s talking to me he gently makes me come with his fingers. This is the fantasy I use 9 times out of 10 when I masturbate; which these days is quite often. Sometimes I’ll even put the cream trousers on while I do it.
At the weekend I had a couple of hours on my own when I got back from the shops and decided to go for a lie down. I was already wearing jeans and changed from my tee shirt in to one of my softest cashmere jumpers. I lay on the bed and with my jeans undone, slipped my hand inside and spent a wonderful relaxing hour pleasuring myself with my thoughts and fingers. I brought myself to several very nice orgasms. A lovely way to spend a Sunday afternoon.